I got what I asked for. I wanted to know how the foods I ate affected my body, so I did the Whole30. And boy, is the reintroduction phase showing me a few things.
Allow me to walk you through the destructive downward spiral that started yesterday:
Morning: Feeling bright and sunshiny, in fact more energetic than I have felt on any day in this journey. Since it was dairy reintroduction day, I decided to add 2 ounces of cheese to my breakfast:
I didn’t feel any negative effects. In fact, I felt so good and zen-like that I actually posted this:
If you can accept that everyone is on his or her own journey, and that their journey is not under your control, you will find yourself less attached to everything they say, believe, or do.
12 Noon: Since I still felt good, I decided after lunch that I would have a kiddie cup of ice cream from Coldstone Creamery. I choose the skinny vanilla because it has no gluten or added sugar (although I’m confident there were ‘other’ types of sugar). I skipped the toppings.
Afternoon: Feeling like a boss!!! I had sugar and I feel fine! I didn’t want any more! I felt like a positivity machine! Everything was awesome until….
Evening: I felt like Cruella de Vil. I would have taken all of the dalmations and kept them…just because. Any positive thought was fleeting and immediately held hostage by my anxiety. I felt like I attached myself to every single thought, which is ironic given my morning post. I didn’t fall asleep until after midnight, and only slept for 4 hours.
This morning: 😐 (That’s me. I’m not impressed, and want to sleep until tomorrow)
So yes, I think my body is THAT vulnerable to something I ate. Was it the dairy or the sugar? Some suggest the dairy impacted my poor sleep, while I am confident the sugar ultimately affected my mood. I’m not completely sure, but for the moment, I am giving both the side eye. I can’t wait to sleep this bad mood off.
What did I learn from this experiment?
I remember that I used to constantly have a hard time falling or staying asleep. I woke up this morning feeling like I was hungover. Mornings like this used to happen often before the Whole30. I’m confident I don’t want them back. It isn’t worth it.
I’m realizing that I don’t need either of these products, and to the extent that it is celebratory on occasion, I will think about taking a few bites (if I can handle it wisely). It wasn’t until late last night that I realized I did reach a point of fullness with my ice cream, where I could have stopped and thrown the rest away. But, I didn’t… because I have an extended lifetime membership to the Clean Plate Club.
I’m not sharing this to convince anyone else that they have the problems I do. My experiment is based on a sample of one. However, if you are interested, there are numerous articles that discuss the link between sugar and depression, addiction, anxiety, and learning and memory. Hearing that sugar can affect anxiety or your ability to cope with stress is enough for me.
However, no fewer than 2 decadent waffles with whipped cream and chocolate on top showed up in my facebook feed this morning, and my immediate feeling was, “I used to love you.”
But now I know I have what I will call The Reverse Snickers Effect:
I’ll update this when I get to the bottom of this saga, but for now, I’m back to Whole 30 for two more days until my final reintroduction: gluten-containing grains.
Reintroduction Recap (two days of Whole 30 between each). I’m not sure you want to know ALL of the effects, so I’ll stick to a numerical rating of 0=none to 10=never again
Day 1 Legumes 6
Day 4 Non-gluten-containing grains 4
Day 7 Dairy 9* (again, sugar might be partially to blame)
Day 10 Gluten-containing grains (not exposed yet)
What affect, if any, does food have on you? Is your mood affected by your intake of sugar?